days ago to do list :

1. motivate yourself, work work work, paint paint paint don't give a shit to one who wants to stop u
2. research about contemporary artistic movements
3. email to some gallerists
4. keep loving him don't care about problems


getting flu
today to do list :

1. fuck motivation, go and burn all of your paintings
2. fuck research , u will forget all the names anyway
3. fuck email + fuck gallerists ,go and live in a far away mountain
4. fuck him what the fuck i am doing here! go back home your mother truly love u